Anyone else always worried and consumed by what comes next? This was my fear, the thought itself was so scary that I couldn’t even think about good things. This has been my constant battle. Not sure about rushing things but definitely it was about what will happen next. This is the reason I don’t post that much here as well as on Instagram because I feel like if I don’t want to do anything, I shouldn’t do it because this is my life and I need to decide what to do. I can’t do what other people are doing and I don’t want to rush things by writing about every trend you know. It’s completely ok if I don’t write about anything because as long as my mind is at peace, I am happy.
Now I see people who are constantly planning for a future, they aren’t even sure they will get. Rushing, racing, and competing against themselves and others. It’s something I wanted to talk about and I couldn’t think of a better time then this.
We all hope for better days, right? That someday our time will come, not today but maybe tomorrow. We’ll find our way. In that process we lose ourselves, we constantly fight a battle inside our head which shouldn’t be a battle in the first place but because we are so occupied by our thoughts, we can’t even think about anything else. We want to do several things at a time which is not possible. Everything will happen on the right time and that right time will come but we actually have to slow down and just flow with what universe is offering to us. After putting alot of effort and thoughts into it, I realized that I need to abandon my fears of missing out, losing and being left behind. There’s no deadline to meet in life, nothing to do or complete at a certain time. They say with time you get to see what you are looking for then why we want to see that time to come early? It just drains all the energy and there will be no peace of mind as your mind is processing too fast, wanting to complete things too fast and being a complete mess. Slow down and enjoy life as it is. Do not try to make things complicated by just jumping from one thing to another and trying to be a Robot because it’ll not be worth it. So what if you didn’t do that internship because you just wanted to be at home. So what if you missed an opportunity because it didn’t feel right. So what if you are not doing what others are doing. It doesn’t matter because what matters is your peace of mind. I am a lazy person but sometimes doing different things at a time is overwhelming but then I have to remind myself again to not fall into that destructive cycle. Just remind yourself that If I don’t relax right now, and give in to this rush and worry, I will always fall back into this destructive cycle. And every time, this negative cycle will repeat itself a little worse than the last time. And a little faster than the one before.
So that, eventually, I will be living my whole life in a state of stress and hurry, not being able to relax anymore. Always worrying about one thing or another. I don’t think any of us would want our family to remember us as always being too busy for them. So, let’s try to live out a more intentional life. Let’s savor the moments as they come knowing that everything else will be taken care of in due time.
I hope you aren’t held back because of a number. And that you don’t rush into things because it feels like time is slipping by. I hope you do what’s right for you. Hold on. Slow down. And breathe in. Your age is your age. But more importantly, your life is your life. Don’t change your journey so that it matches someone else’s. We need to walk different paths so that the whole world can be explored. Revel in the differences. And enjoy where you are.
Thank you for stopping by. Xoxo